urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga lason se daga lason se daga 2003-02-15T07:12:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:13436 2003-02-15T07:12:10Z 2003-02-15T07:12:10Z if i dont write these down, im gonna forget.<br /><br />also, i remind myself to buy stuff from michaels, buy those CDs, and go tanning tomorrow.<br /><br />'walgreens has all your valentines needs? i doubt it.'<br /><br />'go in there naked, with your eyes on, and be like 'im ready.'<br /><br />'floating over the earth's crust' urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:13269 2003-01-25T07:24:10Z 2003-01-25T07:24:10Z sonofabitch ashley and steve<br />i got a burn hole in my new favorite sweater...<br />at least i made out better than tony basement.<br />i cant wait to develop the pictures urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:13009 2003-01-23T23:43:54Z 2003-01-23T23:43:54Z it was my birthday yesterday.<br />and the 30th anniversary of roe vs. wade.<br />i went to see zwan with ryan.<br />i had an amazing time.<br />unbelieveable.<br />suprisingly, i feel alrite today.<br />ive never had so much trouble getting up for school.<br />i cant believe its almost the weekend already.<br />i talked to soda from lalu, and apparently a lot has changed. someone died in a car accident. andrea dropped out, sodas trying to quit....<br />its different, im probably going to spend a weekend there soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:12770 2003-01-20T05:30:16Z 2003-01-20T05:30:16Z went to ashleys again...<br />if i could i would never leave, we can smoke in her basement.<br />hahaha i have the tape in my car, dont i?<br />anyways i got into an accident on the way home.<br />i was getting off the edens onto old orchard, and my car spun out, over the median, and was skidding sideways down the wrong side of the road. i got hit in the front right by a shitty old white van. we almost flew over the guardrail and down down down onto the expressway below. funny thing is. neither of our cars got a scratch, we werent going that fast anyways. but sitll, i was terrified. i almost threw up. on th way home all i could think about was that i can die at any time, and the people who i have bad blood with right now. i wouldnt want to die the way things are. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:12303 2003-01-19T23:27:58Z 2003-01-19T23:27:58Z my weekend can best be summed up in some quotes from it.<br /><br />ashley:There's really nothing better than euphoric, crazy love in my basement... 'cept for maybe when it happens again next weekend <br /><br />michele: i never had before, but i want to forever<br /><br />ashley: mallory, we are so in love<br />me: but osmetimes youre mean to me.<br />ashley: its only because i love you. ill always love you....<br /><br />me: what kind of people are we, michele?<br />michele: strange ones, people that will roll with you<br /><br />michele: am i gonna die?<br />me: no michele, i promise youre not going to die<br />michele: good, i dont want to die<br /><br /><br />a tradition begins...<br />roll into the weekend... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:12145 2003-01-12T06:55:43Z 2003-01-12T06:55:43Z soundtrack of our lives - mind the gap i just typed this all out and lost it, so here goes...<br />there was kind of a make up show tonite.<br />last nite was bad, i had beer stolen and sold to unsuspecting girls form my school. one of them is the girl with the teensy tiny head. when i stole it back form them they bitch and moaned. boo fucking whoo. then there was some sort of big fight with the owner of the houses son (how retarded can you be?) and everyone was booted. two of the three bands didnt even get to play. too bad there will never be a show there again, it was a great setup. bring a case of beer, aarons stepdad will put it on ice for you in the garage. smoking outside, keep it down, the parents will keep the cops at bay. show in the basement. it was great. the stepdad even nursed liz back to help after she threw up last time. went with liz and ashley last nite, by the way. when we bought the case from these older guys, they asked us if we go to north and we said we went to regina. they all laughed and smiled and we knew that they knew about us. at the end of the nite got half a bottle of booze freee from john, the kid i always give wedgies to. got to see lauren w again. anyways people were being assholes for most of the night so i was pretty pissed by them time i stumbled into bed. <br />on to tonite....<br />midway stories was great as always.<br />i went with shane robbie blondie and danny, and shane and robbie promptly ditched us for stupid social reasons after ignoring me all night. but not a problem the problem was blondie. i like the girl, btu she pissed me off tonite. i drove her there, she got too high to drive, ditched her friend danny (who is a decent kid) among a bunch of kids he didnt know, ignored me, and hung off this guy for the entire time, ignoring me after promising me a smoke. but anyways, i was saddled with her becuase she couldnt drive anywhere or function normally. talked to roz kate and aboo a lot. i really like them. rozs drunk ass kept telling me i was the shit. we have plans, and im more excited than i should be. anyways after the show (and after i dropped off blondie her boy toy and danny) i went back to ryans which was uneventful. then i came home. now im just watching indiana jones and the last crusade (best ij movie) and being very very excited about the zwan show im going to. its on my birthday (jan 22 i expect gifts) too! ive been listening to 'behing the music' by The soundtrack of our lives a lot recently. its one of the best albums ive heard in a logn long while. the lyrics are all very poingnant to me and the songs flow like no other. the entire album is quality. sweet dreams. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:12029 2002-12-18T02:34:29Z 2002-12-18T02:34:29Z the loyola boys are back!<br />aaack! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:11592 2002-12-16T17:06:00Z 2002-12-16T17:06:00Z dave 1.. What is the time right now? 10:53 am<br />Name: mallory<br />Nicknames:? mj, mal, the admiral, officer bacon<br />4.. What are you wearing right now: school unifrom<br />5.. Star sign: aquarius<br />6.. Where do you live: north suburb of chicago<br />7.. What do you live in? a house<br />8.. Sex: female<br />9.. Single or taken: taken <br />10.. Righty or Lefty: righty<br />11... Hair color: blondish brownish<br />12.. Eye color: brown<br />13.. Do you have a girlfriend: no<br />14.. Will you send this to your crush: no<br />15.. Who is your crush? i dont have one<br />16.. When is your birthday: jan 22<br />17.. So that makes you how old? 16<br />WHAT YOU LIKE IN A GUY&gt; FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT <br />(for girls only!) <br />1.. Boxers or briefs: boxe-briefs are my favorite<br />2.. Long or short hair: longer, but not too long<br />3.. Afro or dreads? eh, neither?<br />4.. Dark or blonde hair: doesnt matter<br />5.. Natural or dyed? natural. i dont like when guys have more intricate hair rituals than i do<br />6.. Hairy legs or not: well, since i touch a lot of guys legs id have to go with smooth....<br />7.. Do you have a problem with guys shaving their legs? i repeat...<br />8.. Facial hair then? just as long as it doesnt stab me im alright<br />9.. Tall or short: im kinda tall so tall, but its not that big of a deal<br />10.. Six pack: jesus christ... i dont care. i just dont liek when guys are more frilly than i am.<br />11.. Beer gut: actually i find this attractive, it shows they have a good time and dont care too much about their appearence<br />12.. Good or bad guy: you see, you have two jellybeans. one is red, and one is black. you can only eat one and not the other. you know that black one is nasty, and the red one is deliscious. but for some reason, you always shove the black one into your mouth, hoping that this one time youll like licorice... but no! as soon as you taste the chewy anise you spit it out. and that bad taste kinda stays in your mouth a little while.<br />13.. Hat or no hat: no hat, actually. even the cubs hat.<br />14.. Ear pierced or not:i dont care<br />15.. Dimples: dont care<br />16.. Studly or cutie:hahaha these are fucking awful questions.<br />17.. Intelligent or funny?? both<br />18.. Dark or light eyes: doesnt matter<br />19.. Jewellery or none: none<br />20.. Curly or straight hair: i like curly hair actually<br />21.. Freckles or none: i dont care. i like reheaded guys so they dont bother me.<br />22.. Indoor or outdoor: what does this have to do with guys?<br />23.. Shy or outgoing: outgoing<br />ON GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT (for guys only!) <br />im skipping this section for obvious reasons.. they are stupoid questions.<br />*~EVERYONE~* <br />1.. Would you date someone just for his or her looks: maybe<br />2.. Chocolate or white milk: chocolate of course<br />3.. Mud or jelly: jelly <br />4.. Skiing or boarding: boarding<br />5.. silver or gold: silver<br />6.. Sunset or sunrise: sunset <br />7.. Have you ever fractured/broken/sprained a bone: yup. soccer i broke my ankle, wrist, hand, and all the fingers on my right hand, and one on my left. my nose, too.<br />8.. Do you have any piercing's:? yes yes<br />9.. What's your favorite color: red<br />10.. Do you hate anyone: of course<br />11.. Who do you dream about:weird things<br />12.. Do you have a HUGE crush on someone right now: eh? its not so much a crush<br />13.. Who's the loudest friend: MC maybe<br />14.. Who's the quietest friend: i dont really have any<br />15.. Who do you tell your dreams to: anyone but no one really wants to hear them honestly<br />16.. What shampoo do you use: tigi bedhead moisture maniac. im not big on beauty products but im fanatical about shampoo and conditioner<br />17.. How many T.Vs in your house?? 6<br />18.. Who is the last person you called on phone: foley<br />19.. Where do you want to get married: no wya jose<br />20.. If you could change 1 thing about yourself, what would it be: i wouldnt have dicked around so much these past years. well, maybe, no i wouldnt change that. i learned a lot. um... i would change my body, so it wouldnt be so sick all the time.<br />21.. Favorite number(s) 3 and 9<br />22.. Favorite boys names: trent<br />23.. Favorite girls names: cloelia (yeah my kids are gonna hate me)<br />24.. Have you ever gone skinny dipping: yup!<br />25.. Been in love: ooch. i dont want to have to answer this.<br />26.. What is the last film you saw at cinema: no idea i dont go see movies<br />27.. What do you have for breakfast in the morning: nothing<br />30.. Do you drink straight from the milk/ juice carton/ bottle?yup<br />31.. Are you a nymphomaniac:maybe<br />32.. How about a kleptomaniac?: maybe<br />33.. Just normal or a Maniac? im propbably more crazy than most poeple.<br />35.. What time is it now: 11:05 am urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:11489 2002-12-09T03:36:30Z 2002-12-09T03:36:30Z sunny day real estate : how it feels to be something on lason se daga: project sophmore is underway. the subject presents a willingness and overeagerness to paricipate and belong within the group. previous experience is unknown, although the subject reports copious amounts of alcohol ingested over an extended period of time. this information is contrary to the results of the preliminary experiment, in which the subject ingested a meager amount of alcohol with outstanding results, including slurring of speech, vomiting, disorientation, loss of motor skills, and ultimately, passing out.<br />lilashley023:YOU should be a lawyer<br />lason se daga: yes. or a doctor of evil. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:11260 2002-11-27T04:22:25Z 2002-11-27T04:22:25Z some quasi song jebus i LOVE this song.<br />its not that great i know, but not at all what i was expecting after seeing them early this summer, i was so pleasantly suprised that it really took me aback.<br />anyways...<br /><br />Honestly<br /><br />i believe<br />i believe the love you talk about with me<br />is it true, do i care<br />honestly, you can try to wipe the memories aside<br />but it's you that you erase<br />'cause there's no place that i could be without you<br />it's too far to discard the life i once knew<br />honestly, all the weathered storms i'll bring<br />are just a picture of my needs<br />'cause when i think of you as mine<br />and allow myself the time<br />to lead into the life we want<br />i feel loved, honestly<br />i feel loved, yes honestly<br />i believe you mean the best that life can bring<br />i believe in it all<br />honestly, you can try<br />your heart is just as long as mine<br />is it ours to let go<br />'cause there's no place that i could be without you<br />it's too dark to discard the life i once knew<br />honestly, a single wrong is not enough<br />to cover up the pain in us<br />'cause when i think of you as mine<br />and allow myself the time<br />to lead into the life we want<br />i feel loved, honestly<br />i'll make a joke so you must laugh<br />i'll break your heart so you must ask<br />is this the way to get us back<br />i don't know, honestly<br />i don't know, yes honestly<br />there's no place that i could be without you<br />honestly<br />there's no place that i could be without you<br />honestly urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:10834 2002-11-25T02:17:31Z 2002-11-25T02:17:31Z the sopranos ryan said hed probably get off work early, around 6:30.<br />it is now 8:15.<br />i have called him four times and every time its 'im on my way.'<br />what. <br />the.<br />fuck.<br />you call someone if youre gonna be late.<br />what a dick.<br />theres somehting about the snow falling that just makes me want to disappear.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:10324 2002-11-19T17:01:36Z 2002-11-19T17:01:36Z for my communications class i have to create a product and act out an infomercial in an attempt to seel it to my class. problem is, i cant think of any products to invent and sell. any ideas? best suggestions wins a prize.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:10023 2002-11-19T16:58:14Z 2002-11-19T16:58:14Z annoying high school girls im in fourth period cyber and im exhausted.<br />i know im full of excuses, but ive been too busy to post anyhting in here besides stupid quizzes, so here goes my first real entry in foreve...<br />i just gotta say that the boyfriend is great. i cant really put it into words, but i cant imagine being any happier with anyone else. school is alright, i dont get along well with very many people here. i dont think its that people dont like me, i guess i choose not to speak ith any of those who do like me. its kind of strange. i picked up another part time job. 9 bucks an hour for sitting on my ass. i get free meals, its close, small, ill work on the beach in the summer, no drug tests to worry about... im very excited about it. the only things i have to say about my life right now that arent positive are that im completely exhausted all the time and my mother is still a wretch. this weekend was nearly decent, on friday i hung out with molly, jacob, ryan, diana, sara, and sean. we went all the way to woodfield, i got some new stuff and we went to the record store, i got superdrag's 'regretfully yours.' its decent, nothing too special about it or anything. saturday was horrid. i went to the john mayer concert with my cousin and a bunch of her friends. i loathe her boyfriend. hes one of those guys who is soooo overly nice to her and her family. he kisses ass, plays with the little sisters, helps with dinner...<br />maybe its the huge vampire teeth but this guy doesnt sit right with me. like he tries so goddamned hard. i cant stand that in people. when they try denying who they are. yesterday was alright, i got to see ryan, but both of us had to work. i am going to get that boy fired, and im going to feel a little bit bad, but im going to also be ecstatic he doesnt have to work at 4 in the afternoon anymore.<br /><br />anyways, stevie, youre too much. thanks for all the nice things you said about me, im flattered, and i owe you just as much as you do me. maybe next time im in marco ill take a little road trip, it is about that time for me to strat looking at colleges.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:9948 2002-11-13T15:12:50Z 2002-11-13T15:12:50Z for the past 8 days ive had dreams involving sharks.<br />and theyre all pretty terrifying.<br />so i looked up what it means to dream of sharks.<br />Sharks<br />Sharks, water-dwelling animals, could represent unpleasant emotions or difficult and painful materials coming up from the unconscious. You may feel some emotional upset, and the shark could be the symbol of the perceived emotional danger.<br />SHARK<br />Inner fear, or feeling that one is a victim or in danger<br />A devious character, one who uses others, a shark<br />Shark= you or a loved one are under emotional or psychic attack<br /><br />does anyone ever read this? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:9364 2002-10-27T21:15:20Z 2002-10-27T21:15:20Z incubus - the warmth i was talking to an old friend who called me out of the blue today, and he told me i was the kind of person who gets inside your head and you cant get them out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:8766 2002-10-24T15:49:29Z 2002-10-24T15:49:29Z "what kind of stoner are you?" - Results: <br />hippie burnout. you like to chill and listen to music and smoke pot. you're generally out of it, like to sleep, and really don't give a fuck. you're laid back, are pissed of by authority, dig music, are pretty peaceful, and love to party. most likely, you say dude all the time without noticing it. peace, love, and happiness, man. <br /> <br />www.quizilla.com<br /><br /><br />wait for my quizzes, to be finished soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:8471 2002-10-23T00:25:26Z 2002-10-23T00:25:26Z oh my god. talk about the past biting you in the ass. i was at loyola today, and some guy comes up to me and asks me about something very fucking personal. after a few minutes it finally hit me like a fucking truck where this kid was from. that one night when it flooded and a coupla guys picked up me ashley and moira for a few minutes. holy fucking shit. and now sheila knows about it all. goddamn. i literlly ran screaming from the halls of loyola, flew home in 4 minutes, going 80 in a 20 zone. im still fucking freaked out. funny how i was so stupid. no, anything that i did around that time goes way beyond any earthly description. holy fucking shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:8410 2002-10-22T02:21:01Z 2002-10-22T02:21:01Z beck - nobodys fault but my own life has been good. my grades have picked up, my boyfriends great, my friends are crazy but alive, my parents are slightly more reasonable...<br />life is great.<br />and yet i find myself using more and more at an alarming rate.<br />but as long as i can hold it all together, ill be fine. really, i will. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:8003 2002-10-19T02:48:34Z 2002-10-19T02:48:34Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/findingstars/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20punk%20kid%20are%20you%3F/"><img src="http://quizilla.com/user_images/1033477826_CPicsquizregularkid.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">What kind of punk kid are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:7731 2002-10-10T15:56:59Z 2002-10-10T15:56:59Z the hum of the computer lab im in fourth period cyber, and in the midst of my infinite boredom i wandered over to www.colorquiz.com and took the test, and heres the results i got:<br />Existing situation:<br />Readily participates in tyhings that provide excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilirated.<br />Your Stress Sources:<br />The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with otehrs whose standards are as high as her own, and wants to stand out form the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to her self-sufficiency because of the restraint she normally imposes on herself. Since she wants to demonstrate the unique quality of her own character, she tried to supress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal her fear or inadequacy, treating thodse who criticize her behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference she really longs for the approval and esteem of others.<br />Your Restrained Characteristics:<br />Believes that she is not receiving her share - that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement. Willing to become emotionally involved as she feels rather isolated and alone. Egocentric therefore quick to take offense, though she tries to avoid open conflict.<br />Your Desired Objective:<br />Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and overdemanding. Refuses to allow anyhting to influence her point of view.<br />Your Actual Problem:<br />Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety,emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt.<br />Her refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.<br />Your Actual Problem #2:<br />The need for esteem - for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself - has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an inpersonal or minor role.<br /><br />Do you guys think that this accuraterly describes me, becuase i sure as hell do. anyways respond, take the test and id be interested to find out what ya'll got. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:7462 2002-10-09T02:21:12Z 2002-10-09T02:21:12Z the ataris - how i spent my summer vacation oh man im so fuckin tired. anyways my grades are looking better, which is GRRREAT. not much else to say really my lifes been all caught up in school and work and swimming. but i always thought that id moved on when really i was left behind. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:7176 2002-10-05T05:34:26Z 2002-10-05T05:34:26Z attn:where are you now? ive been busy as a motherfuck.<br />its strange, these people from my past falling away, its like im finally moving on. but i doubt it. <br />i was drving aroud a few days ago and i looked up at the clouds and sky, how it was dark above me, the grey clouds like an army of wounded soldiers floating through their final paces, and at the horizon it was bright red, and i thought about how just over he never ending bulge of our heaving world there was sunlight and happiness and loss and fear, and that like the dusk and the dawn, nothing ever dies. its just an illusion, caused by the natural change of things, the ebb and flow of the world, ruling our petty little lives.<br />people have always told me im a genius, if only i would care, im such a waste im such a shame.<br />shame. im very shameful to my family.<br />im just going to ride out my time on this tiny little planet that glows red with desire, and all i ask is to have no regrets when i breathe my final breath.<br />what have i done to myself? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:7029 2002-08-22T05:26:20Z 2002-08-22T05:26:20Z sp - transformer um... today was nothing. i got off work tomorrow so i might see kelly. i was pissed at her, but when i saw her today i realized im too lazy and its not worth it to waste your energy on being pissy at someone, unless its a big fukin deal. now im just cranky becaue i cant sleep and the herbal store was out of valanium. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:6742 2002-08-22T05:16:22Z 2002-08-22T05:16:22Z <p align="center"><img border="0" src="http://212.123.210.144/ProductImages/CD/b/BuckleyJeff_Grace.jpg"><br><br /> <font face="Verdana" size="1">You are "Grace"<i>...It's my time coming, I'm not afraid to die...</i><br>To see what Jeff Buckley song you are <a href="http://www.thedigitalghost.com/judebennett/buckleyquiz.html" target="_blank">click here</a>.<br /> </font></p><br /><br />i dont even listen to jeff buckley, but i know stevie does. so i took the test anyways. tell me about this song stevie.<br /><center><img src="http://liquid2k.com/quizzed/gifted.jpg"><font face="verdana" size="1&quot;"><center><b>I WAS A GIFTED CHILD</b><br>i had my niche.<br>intelligent. creative. or artistic.<br><a href="http://liquid2k.com/sockstar/child/index.html">what kind of child were you?</a><br>(brought you by <a href="http://sunflowers.livejournal.com">april</a>)</center></font><br /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lason_se_daga:6618 2002-08-21T04:52:50Z 2002-08-21T04:52:50Z elimidate! Lately ive been trying to suck the summer out of these past few days like the final fuit-syrupy goodness of a flav-a-ice that’s been melted in the heat of the sun. boxboys on fucking vacation for like SIX MORE DAYS!!!!!! Ozzfest… dear god…. I don’t even want to think about that. Ask me about it if you really want to know, but its not worth revisiting the pain…. I have to go to school tomorrow…. Regina. Ive been missing boarding school a lot. Well, parts of it anyways. Its over. Theres people there im gonna miss sooo fucking much. Ponyboy, kat, ader, Carolyn, libbi, soda… theres more too. But its over now. Im not even sure I want to know what happens to everyone. I got out before my inevitable happened. I know what im leaving, and I know what im returning to. And im not fucking happy.